Monday, January 4, 2010
{ 8:55 AM }
there this one kind of feeling im having now .
no idea what it is yet .
i felt like i was trapped in those terrifying nightmare .
But this aint a dream .
my heart is like giving up in everything .
schools , jobs , emptiness etc .
i just simply don't know .
i need that special magic in me bck .
i miss everything .
i really do .
im like one rotten human at home doing nothing but to do housework and get worried bout stuff .
i need my happiness back .
mum , pls stop saying bad stuff bout me to our relative . i dont like it . no one do .
and dad , i miss you .
hilmi , i've been loving more each day passes by .
i need you to be with me , accompany me .
be my friend , bestfriend , brother , dad & a husband .
you're my only hope to make me smile every single day .
you're my only hope to feel im needed in this word .
Dearest , im trying to save something . something precious .
Im mad bout myself .
Cried badly till my lungs gonna burst .
It gave me this excited feeling everytime i get to meet you .
And yet it gave me this loneliness feeling when i had to go home without you with me .
I get worried .
Hope i wont lose you .
I'll pray for you , me & us .
I always do .
I Love You , Dzulhilmi .
