Monday, February 8, 2010
{ 11:49 AM }
at times , things doesn't go like the way we wanted .
saying sorry doesnt always work .
its true that few days ltr that person may forget everything that happen .
BUT WTF if you do it again !? she cry again ? you say sorry again ?
stop blamming me when i get angry luhhh . who's fault was it ?
Till i called your house . and yea , you were soundly asleep :D
I just wish i cld just turn off my fking fone and make sure you cnt get thru me !
I ask you to leave me alone , but yea ! you keep on adding more and more salt to my goddam fking big deep wound !
told you not to piss me off but you did .
hello~ im spending the whole day alone in this house . ALONE ! A.L.O.N.E !
shld i give you this wake up call ? waiting me to fly off ??
cos you really think you hav your own time in this world .
come on ! once you step home , BOMB ! you fell asleep right infornt of your house gate ? im not dumb ! dont tell me i was not even in your mind went you were like lying down on your bed ? W.O.W ! thats how important i am you you huh ?
and yea , mum still nagging like one siamang cnt find her banana for like 1 week gitu !
im just trying to make myself laugh .
i wish im tired now , so i can just go to sleep , and forget everything .
dad still not talking to me .
planning going to kl this cny .
but .... he doesnt even talk to me .
grrr !
and youre leaving aftr cny . if you really gonna do it ...
im gonna leave everything .
including this house . mum .
i just need to hug someone .
a hug will do everything for me .
a hug always make me feel better .
i just need a hug .
this mth , February , so many stuff came up .
every single day tears falling down my cheeks .
i miss dzulhilmi .
its been 12 days i didnt get to see you .
i miss you , i really do .
Thursday, February 4, 2010
{ 9:06 AM }
I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when Im colder
In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Cant stop now, Ive traveled so far
To change this lonely life
I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me
I'm gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me
Ive got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love has finally found me
Monday, February 1, 2010
{ 8:11 AM }
dad's giving up .
every single word came out from him hurts me .
why cant i just make him happy ?
like how i did in pri and sec .
ignore bout my frens , freedom , happiness , save my own money .
all i think was dad .
just look at him .
he was a perfect dad to me .
woke up 7am off to work . back at 6pm . continue going to work as a taxi driver at back home a 3am .
on and on .
even sat and sunday he's off to work .
dad , im really sorry .
i just be cnt be your perfect daughter .
as for you .
yea , you just did it .
"give up"
no one can see the pain i hav .
towards her father .
herself .
and you .
im lack of confident .
wish i hav someone to guide me .
to push me .
and not making me pissed .
by pushing me in sarcastic way .
how do you motivate me ?
that kinda way ? " lawls ? HAHAHAH ? come on yana ? pakai otak ? "
instead of " im here to teach you , im here to guide you . we'll go thru this together "
and wad ? "give up"
some one pass me a ciggy . im giving up too .
