Saturday, May 15, 2010
{ 9:20 AM }
been coughing and vomiting for the past 3 days .
having tonsillitis . check the image on Google yaw ! geli -.-
cn like anyone please entertain me ?
hahaha . kidding . im gonna be okay :)
gotta try to sleep now .
bbye ! :)
Labels: silly
Thursday, March 11, 2010
{ 7:41 AM }
im the only child to my parents .
20 soon tis april 23 .
wen i was young , we used to celebrate my birthday either at home , restaurant or bbq pit .
now as i grow much older , no more off tat . hahaha . i miss my abg aji . we used to exchange present :) . he's was on 24 april . been 16years i didnt get to see him . i miss him . tho i tot he was my blood abg . well , actually , he was just an anak angkat to my nenek . but , we've grown together .
but im lucky , to hav my two sisters and one brother wif me . tho they are just my cuzzy . i still treat them as my blood .
Md Harris , 16 this year . the irritating one :) wld always non stop bullying his sisters . but still , he nvr fail to protect them , even me . tho he's kinda rough but not even once he fight back towards his parents , not even once he "maki" his siblings . he can be selekeh at times . wif his kain . hahaha . looks like he's not really into girls tat much . idk luh . he's been the shy one towards my parents . "malu luh abg nak ekot korg je J.b " hahaha . but he did follow us . he's generous , he wld order for us macd , tolak me few stick of ciggy . btw abg , botak looks much more smarter on you :)
Nur Nadzirah , 14 this year . the smart one :) yeap , she's an express student . the one tat hav been giving me advice and courage towards everything especially smoking :) but still i cnt stop ! tsk ! she hav tis mancung nose ! that she may use it to cut her birthday cake . she's been the most helpful one . she wld always sleep over to accompany me . nvr fail to bring a smile on my face :) we wld always lepak , buy my fav chips wif her milk tea bottle , and non stop laughing , spying on Bangladesh ! haha ! she wld always irritated me by "eh ! jap ! mana hp adk ? jap2 ! ehhh , mana uh ! pfffttt kat sini ruper nye ." in a day , ermmm , ard 3 times she wld do tat ! silly girl. and yea , she understands me the most :)
Nurul Ain , 13 this year . the blur one :) hahaha . think of her can really make me smile . wif her muke sardin everytime wen she wanna crack a joke . wif her loud laughter ! wide smile ! hahaha . it reminds me of one of this vid we took in the lift . LOL ! and yea , i just love the way she garok my kepala ! damn SYIOK ! i can see her future :) (ameng) . she wld always irritated me by her STM ! always ehhh~ but i adore her eyes & hair her skin too ! she wld LOVEEE to garok her eyes like always . aftr garok2 like 2mins ltr "kak , ada eyemo tk ?" she's the one wld accompany
me staying awake everytime they sleepover my house .
i feel complete when im with them . i love you three <3 (mcm besok nak mampos lak ! ) hahaha
Monday, March 8, 2010
{ 9:36 AM }
IMYSM BLOGGY !
sorry ! for making you feel so lonly . haaha .
Im SOoOoOoO Happy ! i have my smile back with me .
seriously im the happiest LADY(da nk 20 kn ) IN THE WORLD !
dad's been great , da tk mara2 .
mom , biase jgk , wif her silly jokes
three cuzzy , PERFECT as ever !
HILMI , awwwwwwwww . *blushing* i just love him .
im just too happy , idk wad to post ! tadi mcm2 idea . now ! Prooff ! ilang ilao ! lols tata .
Monday, February 8, 2010
{ 11:49 AM }
at times , things doesn't go like the way we wanted .
saying sorry doesnt always work .
its true that few days ltr that person may forget everything that happen .
BUT WTF if you do it again !? she cry again ? you say sorry again ?
stop blamming me when i get angry luhhh . who's fault was it ?
Till i called your house . and yea , you were soundly asleep :D
I just wish i cld just turn off my fking fone and make sure you cnt get thru me !
I ask you to leave me alone , but yea ! you keep on adding more and more salt to my goddam fking big deep wound !
told you not to piss me off but you did .
hello~ im spending the whole day alone in this house . ALONE ! A.L.O.N.E !
shld i give you this wake up call ? waiting me to fly off ??
cos you really think you hav your own time in this world .
come on ! once you step home , BOMB ! you fell asleep right infornt of your house gate ? im not dumb ! dont tell me i was not even in your mind went you were like lying down on your bed ? W.O.W ! thats how important i am you you huh ?
and yea , mum still nagging like one siamang cnt find her banana for like 1 week gitu !
im just trying to make myself laugh .
i wish im tired now , so i can just go to sleep , and forget everything .
dad still not talking to me .
planning going to kl this cny .
but .... he doesnt even talk to me .
grrr !
and youre leaving aftr cny . if you really gonna do it ...
im gonna leave everything .
including this house . mum .
i just need to hug someone .
a hug will do everything for me .
a hug always make me feel better .
i just need a hug .
this mth , February , so many stuff came up .
every single day tears falling down my cheeks .
i miss dzulhilmi .
its been 12 days i didnt get to see you .
i miss you , i really do .
Thursday, February 4, 2010
{ 9:06 AM }
I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when Im colder
In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Cant stop now, Ive traveled so far
To change this lonely life
I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me
I'm gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me
Ive got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love has finally found me
Monday, February 1, 2010
{ 8:11 AM }
dad's giving up .
every single word came out from him hurts me .
why cant i just make him happy ?
like how i did in pri and sec .
ignore bout my frens , freedom , happiness , save my own money .
all i think was dad .
just look at him .
he was a perfect dad to me .
woke up 7am off to work . back at 6pm . continue going to work as a taxi driver at back home a 3am .
on and on .
even sat and sunday he's off to work .
dad , im really sorry .
i just be cnt be your perfect daughter .
as for you .
yea , you just did it .
"give up"
no one can see the pain i hav .
towards her father .
herself .
and you .
im lack of confident .
wish i hav someone to guide me .
to push me .
and not making me pissed .
by pushing me in sarcastic way .
how do you motivate me ?
that kinda way ? " lawls ? HAHAHAH ? come on yana ? pakai otak ? "
instead of " im here to teach you , im here to guide you . we'll go thru this together "
and wad ? "give up"
some one pass me a ciggy . im giving up too .
Sunday, January 31, 2010
{ 7:58 AM }
guess im all alone again .
im really upset .
sick , waited , hoping .
get nothing in return .
i'll be okae soon .
forgive and forget .
but still hurt inside .
haishh .
